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At Night, I Cry

 

At night, I cry because I can’t stop thinking about the old me

When no one’s around, I weep warm tears that slide down my cheeks slowly

And it’s odd, I feel so unsatisfied but I refuse to use the word “unhappy”

I think back to the times where I would just laugh with my little friends, gleefully

Now that I’m older, I feel myself constantly over-thinking

Just constantly thinking of bad habits and fears

Maybe it’s something I did; maybe I’m the bad seed

Maybe I do deserve this horrible treatment by my peers

Or maybe I’m just doing what I do best, over-think

I do it everyday, think to the point where it sickens me

Now I’m physically sick from staring at this laptop screen, constantly

‘Cause now it seems it’s all I have left

Everyone knows what I crave but I can’t seem to do anything about it

And I can’t share my innermost thoughts with them, in-depth

Because my mom will try and do something drastic

My dad just blows it off and says somethin’ sarcastic

And my sister just believes everything is all beautiful and fantastic

And what else am I supposed to say

The very thing y’all hate, I feel the same way

But nothing ever seems to change

Even when I did complain

Now I sit here writing this rhyme

About why I cry at night

Here's a poem I wrote on the 10th. This is when the rough patch really hit its hardest point. I was feelin' so crappy, man. Like total garbage and even when I wrote this, it didn't help much. But now, I feel great and I decided to share this with you guys. I hope you like it. And if you don't, that's cool too. :)

Let me know what you guys think of this.
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:iconhyperpandamonium:
HyperPANDAmonium Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2013  Student General Artist
That was really poignant for me. Nice work - I love it. Glad to hear you're feeling better.
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much, I'm glad to hear that. :D
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HyperPANDAmonium Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013  Student General Artist
Sorry for the accidental double-post. XD But you're welcome. :)
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Lol, I had to check what you were talkin' about. :XD:

But it's all good, no worries. :)
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HyperPANDAmonium Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2013  Student General Artist
Love it. Nice work, it was very poignant for me.
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you much. :iconbowplz:
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Mika-Ryoko Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013   Writer
Very nice, sorry it did not help you at first, but in the long run it did. The point is always to get your emotions across and you did that very well. Glad the rough patch is over
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It absolutely did help in the long run. :)

And me too. Lol, thank you so much. :)
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Mika-Ryoko Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013   Writer
Of course ^^ I know how hard those times can be
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, it really can get rough, at times...
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Mika-Ryoko Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013   Writer
Yep... I just hope the hospital releases my dad soon
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh man......... :iconsadhugplz:

I'll be praying for you and your loved ones. :pray:
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Mika-Ryoko Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013   Writer
Thanks ^^
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're very, very welcome. :aww:
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YukiAwison Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I know exactly how you feel. :hug:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, I'm just glad I'm feelin' back to myself now. :)


Thank you for the comment. I really appreciate it. :thanks:
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Silencedbook9 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Student Writer
Need a hug?
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Lol, I'm good now. :) I wrote this last month, when I was feeling down, but I'm more than happy to say I feel great now!

That was very sweet of you to ask, though. :P Even though, it's not like a phyiscal hug. :XD:
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DkarnDezolus Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah I cry at night too, man. I know how it feels to feel totally alone in your struggles and to feel like there's no one you can tell your troubles to. :(
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Exactly, man. But thankfully I had someone to talk to at the end of the day, to help me through it. I hope you're feelin' better man 'cause I'm more than happy to say that I am. :)

Thank you for taking time out of your day to leave such a heartfelt comment. I really appreciate and you're more than welcomed to check out my other writings, as well. :D
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DkarnDezolus Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm getting there. I'm really glad you're feeling better it's inspiring to see someone so hurt, get over it and come out so strong.

You're perfectly welcome and will do. :)
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's good, man. I'm glad to hear that.
And thank you, man. :thanks:

Alright great, I appreciate that. :)
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DkarnDezolus Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome :) BIG HUG FOR YOU :D
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hahaha! :XD:
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DkarnDezolus Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the devwatch and faves :)
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
No problem, man. You're one heck of a writer. :)
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AussieDidge Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's good to know things changed for the better and that in writing your poem, you tried hard to convey your despairing feelings.

It's probably true that only you could work out what had to be done, considering your parents would've had different opinions on the "best" treatment, as well as everyone else.

Over-thinking about things never helps as well... Matter of fact, I'm sure it makes things worse. Sometimes, I believe it pays to sit back, watch how things unfold and then make a decision from there.

Anyway, good poem and nice to know things are working out. Peace. =)
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, thank you. :)

Yes, exactly!!!

And yeah, over-thinking has always been a bit of a problem of mine. ^^; Thankfully I'm workin' on it, though. :)

Thank you man.

And thank you for the takin' time out of your day to comment. I appreciate that. :D

(And your icon? Forgive if I'm wrong but that looks like it's from Dr. Robotnik's Mean Bean Machine. LOL! I'm a huge Sonic nerd and I think I've seen that before. :XD:)
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AussieDidge Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's my pleasure, glad to know also that I got the point of the poem.

Good to know you're working on the issue and trying to make it better... I'm pretty sure my mum tends to worry like that as well. But hey, that's what parents are for! =)

And actually, regarding my icon, you are right on the money. It's a picture of Dyna-might (Stage 7) while he believes he's winning. As soon as things look good for him, he breaks out into this awesome grin that, personally, has had me in love for several years. It's a bit of a mantra in life, whether on the inside or the outside, smile! Especially if you can pull off that sort of megawatt grin. =)
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Most definitely. :)

Lol, exactly. Things are a LOT better now. :D

:rofl: Awesome, man! You know I know about a lot of Sonic, when I can tell that's Dyna-might, just by seeing an icon like that. I haven't even seen that character in 3 years!! :lmao:

Also, thanks for takin' time out of your day to leave such great comments, man. I appreciate it. :thanks:
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AussieDidge Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That's great to hear, hopefully they remain that way.

Man, it's must've been that massive grin that brings back awesome nostalgic memories. I know it does for me... I've even collected a bunch of songs from the soundtrack. ;)

It's my pleasure really, hopefully I can continue to do the same, but no promises now that university is back up and running. =p
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Most defintely.

Yeah, it really did! That game was actually sort of fun. :XD: Makes me want to play it again. LOL!

Aaah, well, hopefully you'll have more time in the future to comment again on more pieces of mine. :)
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AussieDidge Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That game was major fun, especially Exercise Mode where beans kept dropping faster and faster and you had to react quickly. Was going for big scores back then...

Well, all my classes start pretty late so hopefully I'll have time to check your stuff out, and everyone else's. Then again, I'll have to knuckle down with my homework and such to stay on top of things. =p
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Lol, yep! :XD:

Haha, yep! Work comes first, but I appreciate the thought most definitely, man. Thank you. :)
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Simbalonso Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is great! I really like how you've described your emotions!
I'd say it's quite simple, but it carries so much meaning! Great job! :hug:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Haha, thank you so much. :)


I appreciate that you took time out of your day to comment on this piece. It means a great deal to me, so thank you. :hug:
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Simbalonso Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Absolutely, I'm glad I took the time to read it because it was definitely worth it! I want to thank you for writing something so brilliant! :huggle:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:blushes: Wow, thank you so much. :hug:
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hefeigal Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is a fascinating poem, the emotions are very well conveyed, and the descriptions are very well done. :nod: The writing is very clean, and the wordings are great!
Of all your gallery, I think this is one of the best! Great job! :clap:
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. I absolutely love it when I get feedback on my writings and comments like this mean so much to me. Thank you.


I appreciate the kind words. :aww:
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hefeigal Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
My pleasure, I'm glad it was helpful! :D
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh yeah, most definitely. :)
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Cool-Mojo-Sis Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow. Lol
You probably know how much I feel related to this. Haha~
It makes me wanna cry..I almost did too!

This is a wonderful poem.
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah.....
And dang, everyone's crying! :XD:

But in all seriousness, thank you, my friend. :hug:
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Cool-Mojo-Sis Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Lol! Goes to show you how good you are at putting feelings into your poems! :D

You are very welcome. :D
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's the goal! :D

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imaginative-lioness Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is... amazing. I honestly can't choose the right words to describe my love for this - it hits home. I feel as though this embodies a time in my life, where I was feeling like this and didn't know what to do. I can really connect with this.

My favourite part was:

And I can’t share my innermost thoughts with them, in-depth

Because my mom will try and do something drastic

My dad just blows it off and says somethin’ sarcastic

And my sister just believes everything is all beautiful and fantastic


Beautiful!
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, thank you so much. :blushes: It seems like a lot of people really feel this poem and I'm so glad that they can. That people can relate to it. :)

And aah, yeah. Thank you again. I sincerely appreciate the feedback. :thanks:
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imaginative-lioness Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I have featured this piece in my journal: [link]

:D
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chromeantennae Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I noticed! I saw your journal, right before you commented here. Thank you so much. I really, really appreciate that. Means a great deal to me. Thank you so much. :thanks: :hug:
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