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Forcefield, Forcefield


“Forcefield, forcefield!” My dad likes to mess with me.

I have quirks, so sue me.

I just don’t care for anyone invading my personal space.

When you get tripped and smacked for the Hell of it, you get a little jumpy.

Paranoia isn’t innate or genetically passed down generation from generation,

It’s formulated over an extended period of time. Sorry.

I don’t like buzzing things. It throws my equilibrium off-kilter.

I don’t like his hairy fingers in my face. I love him to death, but I hate hands in my face.

It makes me shift uncomfortably when people hover around me.

Sit down and move around, just don’t move…..around me in the corner of my eyes.

Paranoia isn’t the prettiest of colors.

I think it’s like…a random arrangement of colors that flickers from the next.

But without ever holding a pattern or rhythm.

(Which explains why I hate watching people who can’t dance, dance.)

Blue, green, orange, purple, yellow, red. Crap that doesn’t mix well.

I don’t like that. I like warm hues that mix well together. Nothing too static-y.

“Babe, you’re gonna have a hard time with me with you bein’ so damn jumpy!”

“Just warn me before you do it! I don’t want to have to swing on you in self-defense.”

She laughs. And it’s perfect. Her laugh, I mean.

But I really hope I don’t have to swing on her ‘cause I’m being tackled from behind.

That would be incredibly awkward and probably—just a little bit, painful. For me, more than anything.

I don’t punch that hard.

I bite my collar when I write and I close my eyes to shut out the distractions.

Or simply walk away.

Poetry is an alone thing for me. Well, unless I’m staring at an inspiration.

But when I’m surrounded by family,

Voices are everywhere.

Don’t be alarmed if I zone out.

Or, y’know, stop whatever it is I’m doing on the spot to write.

I’m not a poet, but I kind of am. I just don’t call myself one.

I think I’m too much of a dork to be one.

What poet you know wears Dallas Cowboys New Era 59Fifty hats (That he doesn't even really like) with bandannas?

So I’ll stick with callin’ myself a writer.

And also, don’t be alarmed if I zone out or snap at you for invading my personal space.

It’s just that my “forcefield” is where I keep all of my ideas.

I don’t need anyone poking a hole in my infrastructure.

Some parts are dramatized, but I have a thing for people sneaking up on and me and moving around too much without telling me why. :lmao: I'm a weird kid and this was some serious stream-of-consciousness, but I hope y'all enjoy it nevertheless. <3

I'm getting closer and closer to something REALLY good though. I can feel it in my bones. :iconlovesplz:

~momo-madness and *MadamWoe and *WeirdAndLovely are literature queens by the way. :heart: Thank you all for the wonderful inspiration you lovely ladies. :love:
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cality Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love the part about paranoia. This part really struck me as well: "I’m not a poet, but I kind of am. I just don’t call myself one.". :heart:
chromeantennae Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:love: Thank you ever so much for the great comment, Steph. <33
cality Mar 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
My pleasure, Ricky! :hug:
chromeantennae Mar 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
haphazardmelody Jan 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
"Paranoia isn’t the prettiest of colors."

chromeantennae Jan 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love paranoia/clashing colors/bad dancing connection, it's one of the better descriptions of that unlovely feeling I've seen in some time.   Caramel dansen emote
chromeantennae Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconbowplz: Why thank you ever so much. I really appreciate you taking time out of your day to comment. :) You're great! :D
This is magnificent. I love the way I can really feel what it is you're going through; you describe this feeling so well. I can relate to it a bit but I never knew how to explain it; you did it perfectly. Wonderful work as always! <3
chromeantennae Dec 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconbowplz: Gah, thank you so much, Jen. You're just a total sweetheart. :tighthug:
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