I Can Only Hope

I Can Only Hope

I don’t know where these thoughts have come from,

But I feel as if I should write about myself for whatever reason,

Everything I do for my friends and family, I do with love,

Not to stay in anyone’s good graces, or with any ulterior motives,

I don’t do anything just to be nice; I do it to communicate something deeper

To represent something I honestly used to be too afraid to acknowledge

Not because of its meaning, but rather if I was going in too fast for the other

But I think it’s time I get over that and finally recognize what it is I’m truly saying

When I do what I do, when I say the things that I do, it’s because it is love

And I think I just realized what caused me to worry, and what brought upon these insecurities

It was the uneasiness at the depths of the emotions that left me stunned,

And I believe I was afraid to utter the word “love” because of what its perceived to be,

Or maybe that was the excuse I used to justify my doubts at the time,

But I think now that I’ve cleared my head, I feel I can clearly communicate my message

That my feelings of love are true and it’s more than a simple manifestation of my mind

It is real and I feel it with every waking breath, but it is not of sexual love, but pure innocence

My love for those I call my friends are purely platonic and I think this is why I care so much,

This is why I posted “I’m Sorry,” and “12;” it’s why I posted “Awesome, Epic,” and “You + Me,”

My reasons are in plain sight to the naked eye, but the word has never been uttered……Love,

For a word with such few letters it has such huge significance; its meaning to me is still puzzling,

But I don’t know what else to call these emotions I’m experiencing,

Because these feelings aren’t just liking someone, but seriously caring for another human being,

It’s the need to see them happy, to see them flourishing and succeeding,

It is love in its purest form, with no strings attached,

Because all I want in return is their success and happiness,

And when I post this, I shall have no regrets

Because my heart is my art, and I can only hope you all truly understand what it is I just said